Cumming on cam for the first time

It was Chaturbate who popped my orgasm cherry.

I never thought that I would actually cum on cam. When my clients would beg me to cum, I would quickly decline saying “I can’t cum on cam!” It was way too awkward for me and, besides, over 90% of the time while I cammed, I was never horny anyway. Camming while not being horny is probably the hardest thing to do. It’s hard to be sexy when you’re not in the mood. I promised myself I would never cam when I wasn’t horny, but I wasn’t horny a good majority of the time so that means I would have never been able to cam. I tried watching porn before I cammed, but that still didn’t work. I tried buying a vibrator. That didn’t work. I would always cum when the camera was turned off, but never with it on.

Of course, when I came, it wasn’t in group chat or public chat. For shy girls like myself, it usually always starts in private chat. Private chat is where all the action takes place. It was probably one of the weirdest sexual moments of my life. And the only thing I showed throughout the whole ordeal was my cleavage. The guy wasn’t even remotely attractive. He didn’t show his face on cam until the very end and he didn’t even show his schlong (schlong means dick in my world) until the end either. We just talked like normal human beings. He said he wanted to get to know me, not my body. Very cheesy, but apparently that’s what turns me on. He was in his early 30’s and he had nice, washboard abs. His abs were the only thing he was willing to show on cam- in the beginning. I was going through one of my “Lyk ohmygawd an older guy” phases.

This whole experience freaked me out because I’ve never orgasmed on cam, but also mainly because he never showed his face until after he came. What exactly does that say about me? Of course, he came first and then a few minutes later I came (Isn’t this always the usual in the bedroom? The guy cums first then the girl?). And, let me tell you, it was not sexy in the least. It was a very odd moan. A moan like yeah-I-totally-didn’t-plan-this type of moan. It completely took me off guard and I wasn’t ready to sound sexy (yes, you have to be ready for these things!). Then he showed his face and my smile turned from nirvana to “what the fuck did I just do?”

I tried talking to him again after that night, but he seemed uninterested. I thought it was because I sucked, but then it hit me. I’m just a cam girl. A one time fantasy. He busts his nut to me once, then moves on to the next cam girl. That’s how things work.

He was the first guy to watch me cum on cam and the only guy. I felt like he deserved a cookie.

But all I gave was a ‘thank you’, a smile, and a wave goodnight.

That’s worth a cookie, right?

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4 thoughts on “Cumming on cam for the first time

  1. You probably been in private with the wrong person Olivia. I’ve been on chaturbate for about 6 month now and I met some good friends and I’m always looking forward to see them again and chat with them. It’s just sad that the day I met you has also been the last day I saw you because I’m pretty sure we could have been good friends too.

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