It just gets harder and harder, and it makes me not want to log on anymore.
My first paycheck was $250, my second was $85 (I didn’t work for a week for that pay period though because I was at Anime Weekend Atlanta and my boyfriend’s house), and, so far, for my 3rd pay period, I’ve only earned about $5. I don’t even think I can buy a McDonald’s meal with that. I still have time to earn money before the pay period is over though. I honestly have no idea how some girls work as a webcam model full-time and actually support their kids with this. I feel so sorry for them, but then I also think they have a lot of guts. I once overheard a girl on AmerCutie.com say that she raised about $10,000 in five months and used it to pay off her college loans– WOW! What a lucky girl. I’m sure she did more than just webcam model though, especially not just on one website. I’m sure she sold her panties, sold her home-made porn, etc.
I started off as a “non-nude model” (yes, you can be a successful webcam model without ever taking any clothes off), but, as I become more confident with my body, I’m starting to notice that I don’t mind taking my clothes off every now and then. In a way, I’ve grown to love certain parts of my body I never loved before. My camscore is now below 700 and that’s sad, really sad. When you log on cam, the longer you stay online without receiving a tip, the faster your camscore lowers and, when your camscore lowers, you lose customers. You aren’t as popular anymore so your name drops further and further down the cam stream line into an abyss of nothingness. You’re supposed to log off if you don’t receive tips within 30 minutes of being online to save your camscore, but I always end of staying online way longer because I have so much fun talking to the guys in my room.
The only positive thing I can say about having less traffic in my room is that I no longer get any trolls in my room. No one comes into my room calling me a nigger (yes, there is a lot of racism in the cam industry; hell, even the porn industry as a whole) or a whore anymore. No more guys trying to bully me into taking my clothes off either. I still get a lot of guys who beg and make requests without tipping though. God, they’re the so annoying. I think I would prefer them calling me a nigger over beggers.
Oh, but the most annoying thing over everything else is when people come into your room advertising for other models. UGH!
Camming used to be fun in a way, but now it’s just kind of pissing me off. I’m tired of guys trying to scam me into getting free shows and I’m tired of the same ol’ “Wow, you’re hot! I wish I could tip you now, but I’m broke. I’ll pay you next week!” >____> I’m tired of guys busting their nuts- busting multiple nuts at that- while looking at me, but can never even tip a damn penny. Yes, I literally mean a penny. I’m not exaggerating here. And this is really weird to me because when I first started, I didn’t care about tips at all, I just wanted to have fun and meet new people. I guess I realized that most of the people are assholes so my bright, cheery exterior deteriorated.
I’m not sure how much longer I can keep it up. This is why I hope and pray I get that job because I can’t keep relying on this.